Boney James & Norman Brown will be here November 20th at the 5th Avenue Theatre.

I will not be missing this jazz show.   I am still mad that I missed seeing Jill Scott and Mos Def last week.  I swear I didn't hear ONE person talking about that concert before it happened. 

*I must go to ticketmaster immediately.*

I talked with my cousin last night regarding her issues with her latest fling. We both concluded that maybe the reason her new male friend does not want to sex her much is because he is afraid that she will get emotionally attached and ask for a monogomous relationship.

ALL sex DOES NOT involve emotional attachment, some people do not have the capacity for deep emotion and some just do not have the attention span or interest to sustain an emotional attachment (like my cousin). She simply wants the friendship with good sex on the side.

I know that many men think that EVERY woman they have sex with will automatically get attached and think that sex = boyfriend-girlfriend status. That is not always the case.

An emotional attachment for me means that there is some kind of lasting bond formed during the act of intercourse and I can tell you, that just is not true. I have been having sex for almost 20 years and have only formed an emotional attachment BECAUSE of sex ONCE when I was in my early 20's.  (For the most part I was in long term relationships).  I think an emotional attachment requires more than physical contact. There are few men who allow you to experience a deep connection with them, they never quite open up and share the way we women need them to to create an ideal bond for a long lasting relationship.  

So should one go without sex waiting on MR PERFECT N. RIGHT? I'm sure many people respond to that question with a big YES, wait for the ONE. That's easy to claim when you've gone a year or two without sex... but try going 7 or 8 years without(assuming you are not a virgin) and then wake up and realize you are damn near 40 - trust me your whole MINDSET will change.  Visions of cobwebs forming on your coochie can cause you panic attacks.

If you are one of those who will continue to save yourself I hope you don't have to wait long for the ONE.  I am neither avoiding sex nor am I saving it for that magical relationship, I just have no interest in getting any lately.  I do like to have a connection of sorts with someone I am sexing - it's the only way I'll have an orgasm- I have to have some mental involvement.  But if too much time goes by more than likely I'll call up my ex and satisfy those longings. (Hey, I can use him until he finds a new girlfriend).  Right now, I'm having a ball masturbating...I didn't do it much while I was young so I'm enjoying this new pasttime.

Ta Ta!

I received two boxes of Harry and David Pears on Friday. I've been patiently waiting for them to fully ripen. I just can't wait to bite into one and have that juice run down my hand and wrist....

YUUUMMMMMYY!!

If you never had one...you just don't know!!

Freedom of speech is Freedom of speech... Until you try to use your Freedom of speech. Then you learn the truth - you only truly have Freedom of speech to an extent.

A three year old little boy was examining his testicles while aking a bath. "Mama," he asked, "Are these my brains?"

His mother answered, "Not yet"

Here a list of drinks that will get you fucked - or fucked-up...

ADULT DRINKS

#1    After Sex
Ingredients
2 cl Vodka
1 cl Creme de Banane
Orange Juice
Pour the vodka and creme over some ice cubes in a tall glass and fill up
with juice. To make it beautiful, top off the glass with a grenadine and
sugar.

#2   Sexual Harassment
Ingredients
1/2 oz Crown Royal
1/2 oz Amaretto
1/2 oz Sloe Gin
3/4 oz Orange Juice
3/4 oz Pineapple Juice

Pour all ingredients in a mixing tin with ice. Shake and strain.
*Pineapple Juice is optional.

# 3    Greek Sex on the Beach
Ingredients
2 parts Vodka
1 1/2 part Bacardi Limon
2 parts Grenadine
2 1/2 parts Orange Juice
1 part Gold Tequila
1 part Southern Comfort

Put all ingredients in together, and shake. Serve in a glass filled up to 2/3 with ice.

#4 Sit on my face
Ingredients
1/3 oz Kahlua
1/3 oz Frangelico Hazelnut Liqueur
1/3 oz Bailey's Irish Cream

Layer in order.

#5  Sex on Daytona Beach
Ingredients
1 oz Vodka
1 oz Peach Schnapps
3 splashes Grenadine
1/4 oz Heavy Cream
4 oz Pineapple Juice

Blend ingredients by shaking well.

#6    Orgasm
Ingredients
1/2 oz White Creme de Cacao
1/2 oz Amaretto
1/2 oz Triple Sec
1/2 oz Vodka
1 oz Light Cream

Shake all ingredients with ice, strain into a chilled cocktail glass, and serve.

#7   Tropical Orgasm
Ingredients
Pink Lemonade
1/10 Absolut Vodka
1/4 bottle Mrs. T's Strawberry Daiquiri Mix
1 splash Captain Morgan's Rum

Start with 3/4 of a pitcher with pink lemonade. Then add the vodka. Mix till you can barely taste the vodka, then add the strawberry daiquiri mix, then a splash of rum. (Just a bit, do not add too much) Stir and then chill.


#8    Black Orgasm
Ingredients
1/4 shot CreamyHead Sloe Gin
1/4 shot Blue Curacao
1/4 shot Peach Schnapps
1/4 shot Absolut Vodka

Just pour, stir, and enjoy.

#9  Kinky Orgasm
Ingredients
2 cl Bailey's Irish Cream
2 cl Amaretto
2 cl Kahlua
Milk

Pour Bailey's, amaretto and Kahlua into a highball glass. Fill with milk, add strawberries or vanilla ice cream if desired, and serve.

#10   Screaming Multiple Orgasm
Ingredients
2 cl Orange Liqueur
2 cl Bailey's Irish Cream
1 1/2 cl Galliano
3 cl Milk
Strawberries

Build over ice. Garnish with strawberries or cherries.


#11   Screaming Multiple Climax
Ingredients
1 oz Vodka
1/2 oz White Creme de Cacao
1/2 oz Amaretto
1/2 oz Frangelico Hazelnut Liqueur
1/2 oz Creme de Banane
Fill with Cream

Best if built in a mixing glass with ice, shaken and poured into Hurricane glass, but can be built directly in the Hurricane glass.


#12   Screaming Multiple Orgasm on the Beach
Ingredients
1 1/2 oz Amaretto
1/2 oz Triple Sec
1 oz Midori Melon Liqueur
1 oz Malibu Rum
1 oz Peachtree Schnapps
2 oz Club Soda

Fill glass 1/2 full with ice. Add all liquors and speed shake. Top with club soda.


#13        Blow Job
Ingredients
1/4 oz Kaluah

1/2 oz Tequilla

Pour liqueurs into a shot glass and top with whipped cream. Have individual place their hands behind their back and pick-up the filled shot glass with their mouth and tilt head back, then drink.

#14  Wet Pussy
Ingredients
1 oz Chambord Raspberry Liqueur
2 oz Irish Cream
6 oz Milk

Pour the Chambord, Irish cream, and milk or cream into a shaker with ice. Shake, strain and pour into a glass.

#15   Wet Snatch
Ingredients
5 parts chopped Ice
3 parts Tequila
1 part Vanilla Syrup
2 parts Coconut Milk
1 part blue Raspberry Juice
2 parts Pineapple Juice

Add blue raspberry to ice, add vanilla, pineapple, and coconut, then blend. Add tequila, and blend again. Add whipped cream on top if desired.

#16  Bald Pussy
Ingredients
1 1/2 shot Melon Liqueur
1 shot Lime Vodka
1 shot Absolut Vodka
1 shot Triple Sec
1 1/2 shot Blueberry Schnapps
1 splash Lime Juice
1 splash 7-Up

Pour ingredients over ice in a highball glass and shake.

::15 Random Favorites::
1: Law & Order
2: bowling
3: vacations
4: fresh air after it rains
5: X-Box

6: Joop for men
7: other people’s babies
8: men with bald heads and fades
9: What Word
10: Washington Red Appletinis
11: jet skis
12: large bodies of water
13: Taurus’
14: Shoes
15: good fitting jeans

::14 Favorite Foods::
1: lobster
2: Gumbo
3: Seafood chowder
4: fajitas
5: tacos
6: red snapper
7: BBQ from Jones BBQ
8: dirty rice
9: apple cinnamon cheerios
10: butter pecan icecream
11: Caesar Salads
12: Hamburgers with bacon, hotlinks, cheese and onions…double patty
13:  french toast
14: omelettes

::13 Most Watched Shows::

1: Real World/Road Rules challenges
2: Law & Order  SVU
3: Dave Chappell
4: Law & Order CI
5: the food network- Emeril Live
6: Fear Factor
7: America’s top model
8: The Apprentice
9: Girlfriends
10: Kevin Hill
11: News
12: Nip Tuck
13: Extreme Makeovers

::12 Good Music Groups::  I’ll pick my favorite artists

1: Jagged Edge
2: India Arie
3: Seal
4: Jaheim
5: Sade
6: Maxwell
7: Eric Benet
8: Alicia Keys
9: Kenny Lattimore
10: Beyonce
11: Jill Scott
12: D’angelo

::11 Memories::

1: Trips to Disneyland
2: Keith
3: 1984-1986 were my favorite years
4: playing bullshit (drinking game)
5: college dorms
6: Kappas
7: Prince
8: Florida
9: Linda – my best friend died
10: Nick in Singapore
11: Breyahna’s first 5 years

::10 Close Friends::

1: Donnecia
2: Vanessa
3: Robin
4: Doris
5: Donelle
6: Linda B.
7: Andrea
8: Nick
9: Juana

10: my Dad

::09 Things you're looking forward to::

1: June 2005
2: Paying off my house
3: more vacations
4: my daughter graduating
5: getting married SOMEDAY
6: Tahiti
7: freedom
8: putting time in my own business
9: more catering gigs

::08 Things you wear daily::

1: my watch
2: earrings
3: Peach oil
4: panties/thongs
5: bra
6: 1 necklace
7: clothes
8: baby oil

::07 Things That Annoy You::

1: mean people
2: bad drivers
3: ghetto fab folks
4: silly kids on public buses
5: whiners
6: being stuck indoors
7: men who grab my ass

::06 Things You Touch Everyday::

1: my cell phone
2: my steering wheel
3: computer
4:  MONEY
5: my grammy
6: food

::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::

1: Shawshank Redemption
2: Soul Food
3: Love Jones
4: As Good As It Gets
5: Casino

::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys::

1: Atari
2: Teddy bears
3: my bike
4: jacks

::03 People You Have Kissed::

1: Mario
2: John
3: Mike

::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::

1: Goodies - Ciara
2:  Touch - Seal

::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::

1: ME

A - Age : 30 something 
B - Band listening to right now : Ciara

C - Career in future: Catering Empire
D - Dad's name: Carl  
E - Easiest person to talk to: Donnecia

F - Favourite song at the moment: My Boo - Usher & Alicia Keys
G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms:  Gummy Bears
H - Hometown: Seattle Washington
I - Instruments: Clarinet, Sax
K - Kids: 1
L - Longest car ride ever: From Seattle Dallas and Back
M - Mom's name: Julia
N - Number of siblings: 2
P - Phobia[s]: Snakes, spiders, heights
Q - Favourite Quote: "Never mistake knowledge for wisdom. One helps you make a living, the other helps you make a life."  
R - Reason to smile: I'm still breathing
S - Song you sang last: "Goodies" 
T - Time you wake up: 5:50am
U - Unknown fact about me: I love to sing
V - Vegetable you hate: BEETS
W - Worst habit: too giving
X - X-rays you've had: chest, foot, tummy
Y - Yummy food: Cajun Ribeye Steak
Z - Zodiac sign: Cancer

National Celibacy Day 
November 2
*NO DICK  - NO BUSH*

Pass on this info --your life may depend on it!

-- Name: Emotion
-- Birth date: 7-11
-- Birthplace: Washington state
-- Current Location: Washington state

-- Eye Color:  medium brown
-- Hair Color: Dark Brown
-- Height:  5'3
-- Righty or Lefty: Right
-- Zodiac Sign:  Cancer

LAYER TWO:
-- Your heritage: black
-- The shoes you wore today:  High Heels
-- Your fears: Flying, being undergroud (garages),snakes
-- Your perfect pizza:  Pepperoni,spicy sausage,extra sauce
-- Goal you'd like to achieve:  pay my house off.
LAYER THREE:
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM/Yahoo/MSN: LOL!
-- Your thoughts first waking up: I'm tired.
-- Your best physical feature:   My eyes & skin
-- Your bedtime:   Midnight
-- Your most missed memory:  Christmas as a child

LAYER FOUR:
-- Pepsi or Coke:  neither, don't like pop
-- McDonald's or Burger King:  Neither, but I like Taco Time
-- Single or group dates:  Single
-- Adidas or Nike:  Nike
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:   Lipton
-- Chocolate or vanilla:  vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee:   latte

LAYER FIVE:
-- Smoke:  No
-- Cuss:  yep
-- Sing:   yes
-- Take a shower everyday:  yes
-- Have a crush(es):  yes
-- Do you think you've been in love:  Yes
-- Want to go to college:   went, dont want to go back
-- Like(d) high school:   had a good time
-- Want to get married:  I think so
-- Believe in yourself:  yes
-- Get motion sickness: No
-- Think you're attractive:  yes, a little
-- Think you're a health freak:  No
-- Get along with your parent(s): My Mom a little,  My Father YES
-- Like thunderstorms:  no
-- Play an instrument:  sax, clarinet

LAYER SIX:
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol:  YES
-- Smoked:  No
-- Done a drug:  no
-- Had Sex:  no
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Gone on a date:  Yes
-- Gone to the mall:  no
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos:   No
-- Eaten sushi:   no
-- Been on stage:  yes, singing karaoke
-- Been dumped:  no
-- Gone skating: no

-- Made homemade cookies:  no
-- Gone skinny dipping:  no
-- Dyed your hair:   no
-- Stolen anything:  no

LAYER SEVEN:
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing:  yes
-- If so, was it mixed company:  yes
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:  not really
-- Been caught "doing something":  Yes
-- Been called a tease:  no
-- Gotten beaten up:  no
-- Shoplifted:   no
-- Changed who you were to fit in: No, could care less

LAYER EIGHT:
-- Age you hope to be married:  40
-- Numbers and Names of Children:  1 child, Breyahna Monet
-- Describe your Dream Wedding:  Vegas
-- How do you want to die:  not
-- Where you want to go to college:  I don't
-- What do you want to be when you grow up:  ME
-- What country would you most like to visit:  Greece

LAYER NINE:
In a guy/girl..
-- Best eye color?:     hazel
-- Best hair color?     black
-- Short or long hair:  bald
-- height:  6'0+
-- Best weight: 210
-- Best articles of clothing: jeans
-- Best first date location:  Jillians
-- Best first kiss location: in front of fireplace

LAYER TEN:
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: weed
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 7
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many and never counted
-- Number of piercings: 2 both ears
-- Number of tattoos: 1
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: twice
-- Number of scars on my body:  1
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: 3 things.

Toe sucking....have you ever done it or have you ever been on the receiving end of a toe suck? What did this do for you?

No one has ever sucked my toes. I'm too ticklish for that but I do have cute little toe toes.  I am baffled as to why some people find this act erotic or sexual...so anyone who has knowledge of it, please enlighten me.  

For the life of me I can't imagine how sucking my toes will get my coochie wet???

I'm sort of a reality tv addict so I guess you could say I've now found the perfect link/website!!

Here's to sharing!

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Have you ever questioned whether or not you actually deserved to have love in your life?  I don't mean love coming from family and friends, but true love from an S/O.

I have been feeling as if I don't deserve love and I know that in itself is not going to bring anything positive into my life.  I have been trying to come to terms with what is making me feel this way - which is hard.

Its always hard to be who we are -honest to ourselves and others, to face what others try to hide with their own ideas of value, what's right or wrong and the meaning of life... no matter what your origin is or how you were brought up.

Still...I have been battling my own thoughts...and it is hard to be in the middle of a one man WAR.

I'm still trying to get used to this site.  I don't know what I keep hitting that is erasing my posts...but it's pissing me off!

Come view the Haunted House if you DARE!!

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Lists of 5 Favorite Things....

1. List your five favorite pasttimes.
Internet stuff, bowling, golf, pool, and traveling.

2. List your five favorite websites.
Taboo -EN, E-online, blackpeoplemeet, pogo, and MSN games.

3. List your five favorite snack foods.
Caramel Apples, Pears (juicy pears), popcorn w/redhot sauce, peanutbutter sandwich, hotlink on bun with lots of mustard.

4. List your five favorite board and/or card games.
Backgammon, Dominoes, Life, Monopoly, Pass Out

5. List your five favorite computer and/or game system games. (on X-box) Halo, Frogger, Dead or Alive 2,The Thing, and Mortal Kombat 4

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had*
1. One Good Man
2. Sex on demand
3. A building for events/catering
4. A 2nd home in Vegas

*Name Four Scents You Love*
1. Cashmere Mist - Donna Karan
2. Burberry Brit 
3. Herve Leger - paris
4. Peach Oil

*You'd Never Wear in Public*
1. head scarf
2. PLAID
3. a wig or weave of any kind
4. blue eye shadow

*Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now*
1. diet

2. crooked business people
3. Wondering where my boss is
4. Going back to bed

*Name Four Things That You Have Done Today*
1. Came to work
2. Chat on IM
3. Ordered supplies/work
4. showered, shampooed and dressed

*Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought*
1. Photos
2. 3 books 
3. Dinner for two

4. gas

*Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like*
1. Michael McDonald
2. Nelly Furtado
3. Nora Jones
4. Alien Ant Farm

*Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink*
1. Coffee
2. Water
3. Chardonnay or Pinot Noir
4. Cranberry Juice

I have a habit of deleting people out of my life.

I delete them as if they never existed.

I suppose it's easier to deal with people that way.

Delete their number from my cell phone, delete their e-mail addy, delete their numbers from my palm pilot, delete any thing that leads to communication. If I have no way of talking to them or reaching out...I can tell myself they never existed right?

There have been times when I deleted someone who was unaware that they had been deleted.  They will call me up wondering why they have not heard from me.  I respond with the usual...I can't call you cause you were deleted.  This is usually met with silence and confusion.  Funny thing is, I've never deleted my ex's.  I am still friends with all 3 of them.  I seem to delete those who are only temporary in my life.

I am ready to delete J. I'm sure he knows this. I feel pretty good about deleting him forever and should have done it back in August since we are not really looking for the same things in a relationship.

I am actually ready to delete others too. Permanently. No more screwing casually.  It does not make it easy for us to be around one another.  

I want to find that ONE man who I don't have to delete...
There are possibilities, I just have to take a chance.

What causes a person to think of someone they've never physically met? Is it the anonymity or the mystery of not knowing who we are really communicating with?  What is really embedded deep in our minds that makes us long for a connection so far away?

I keep wondering if this is real.  I realize our newfound freindship is real, but what about other possibilities?  You know the ones..
will we ever meet?  
would he like me in person once we did meet?
would we still get along if we met in person?
is this just make believe?
and the question of the day....IS THIS A GAME?

What other kinds of situations create an opportunity to meet someone and get to know them intimately sight unseen?
I love talking to him, I love our casual way of communicating but fear that one day it will disappear or be replaced by the miles.  DO YOU FEEL ME?

I have longings that are not being met and I know that whenever I speak to him it makes those longings feel better. I am so attracted to his intelligence and candor.  It's that MENTAL stimulation this is lacking in my life and he is filling that void.

I am also longing to share something with the man who is stimulating my psyche.  I would like to be held by that man, caressed by that man and made love to by that man...
CAN YOU RELATE?